Disconnected

Cut off. That's the best way that I can describe what I am feeling right now. I feel very cut off from my own life....my life the way I know it and like it. My life at home. Who I may become while I am here will be integrated into my life at home b/c that is who I am. And my biggest fear is that y'all are going to move on from me. Not put the effort into maintaining a friendship with me b/c I am farther away. Maybe I put too much effort into things. Maybe I do. But for me that is better than looking back one day and wishing I had put more effort into something. I don't really think I will ever look back and wish I had put less effort into something. I know that I am here to learn more about myself and to get the tools that I need to do the job I have dreamed of. But even that is about effort. Helping people requires effort and compassion and caring and respect. All of which are things that I try to put into my relationships with people. So please y'all don't discount me simply because I moved to get my graduate education. Please keep in touch with me and maintain friendships with me. B/c my friendships are what will get me through my professional life. I try to be the kind of friend that I would like to have and I hope that you all see that as true and feel that way about the effort I put into keeping in touch with each of you. I'm still the same person you became friends with...I might even come out of this all a little better, a little more understanding than I was before.