Wednesday, July 12, 2006

A non-noble birth Damsel?

I am overwhelmed. Overloaded. Exhausted. Tired of dealing. Distresed. Stressed out. High strung. Yes, I think it is safe to say that I am at the breaking point. Too much to do, no concentration to focus on any of it, no idea of where to start, etc etc etc. If I had the time I would curl up in a ball and talk into my tape journal from years of old. But I simply do not have the time. I have a group presentation to give tomorrow that I am already sick of seeing. Since I was home so much for dad's surgery, I offered to do the powerpoint for the group. 76 slides. And the 76 slides were met with multiple revisions. So needless to say I have no desire to talk about ADHD and other disorders in front of the class tomorrow. I have a research paper due next Wednesday. I have read the articles I found on my topic but have no idea how to organize the paper or where to even start. I also have a group presentation coming up in that class but my group has no idea what we are doing. In my third summer class I have a case study due that I may still need more sessions for and a research paper for that class. Not to mention 11 or so chapters for one class and who knows how many for another. I am over this right now. I want to be at home. I want to be driving around with my usual cows clearing my head and figuring out life. I am supposed to go to a bachelorette party this weekend. Never been to one. Sounds like fun. Do I have time for this? No. Yet I feel obligated to go for at least part of it. One of my best high school friends is getting married and wants me in her wedding and I simply can't even think about it right now. It's in 3 Saturdays. I have so much to do before then. Dad's surgery went well but there have been some things happening since then. I want to be at home. I know sitting by his bed doesn't change anything but it does. My mind is there anyway so why not the rest of me? B/c I am a conscientous student. I'm responsible. I want to go home!!! But I also want to be a professional so I guess I must stick it out and do the driving back and forth thing.
The one bright spot of my past few weeks was that I got to go diamond ring shopping and try on expensive and beautiful jewels. My boyfriend also obtained my dad's permission....which may sound odd coming from me but for all my feminist ideals my daddy is important to me and I wanted that...and I think my boyfriend did too. Will anything come of that? Not this month b/c he is going on his usual July vacation. Hopefully in August. I have high hopes for August on many levels. I can't keep going like this. I need a break. Is it July 30 yet?

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